Progress!

Monday was good in the morning, rough in the afternoon. Tuesday was rough altogether, so I expected a really rough day today at drop-off. I took Davis out on the playground where they were playing and all the teachers said "hi" to him and I also noticed that the kids are starting to recognize each other. He was not happy...but I sat down to play with him in the sandbox. He so wants to have fun there. He smiles and he plays and he looks so happy- but the second another kid starts crying- or he goes a little beyond his viewpoint of me- he panics, cries and comes running.

I stuck around for about 15-20 minutes and we played and I talked to his teacher, Logan, who I really like. Davis played and played...and then I said to him "Davis, momma has to leave in about 5 minutes." He started to whimper. "Here goes" I thought. But as I got up to leave and I walked over to Logan, I was telling Davis I had to go to work, and as we got closer to Logan, he reached out to him and let him hold him WITHOUT ANY TEARS!

I walked from the playground to the parking lot not hearing a single cry. Yesterday I heard him wailing all the way to my car. PROGRESS! I can't tell you how good this made me feel. I went upstairs to leave my check for the month and I found a little window where I could spy on him and all the kids on the playground. He was spinning around and smiling and having a great time. This gives me such hope! Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers.

Also yesterday he slept for an hour and a half, AND he fell asleep at 6:15. It's catching up with him, sweet boy.

From Bennett, With Love

When Bennett and I thought Davis was going to be a girl, Bennett picked out the sweetest little knit hat for her. That hat, along with a few other items we picked out, are in a box waiting for our little girl. This time around, Bennett picked out the sweetest little dress. Can't wait to see her in it!

Headstands and Nose Picking

Okay, this is neither headstand nor nose picking. But I hacked my mom's camera and got this picture from the beach earlier this summer. So happy.

And this one too. High flying in Port Aransas.

Relaxing on the road.

Crazy smile.

Goofing around on Thursday.

Jennifer is a yogi. And while she was keeping Davis she got him hooked on the headstand. Or the half handstand.

Though sometimes it hurts our head.

And sometimes Pico likes to get involved.

And then we have to rest a bit.

Yay for two dudes hanging out at The Flying Saucer.

How handsome is my husband? Seriously.

Crazy hair- I think the only thing holding his hair is sweat, by the way.

And thus begins the nose picking.

Easing into it.

Really going for it.

Moving on.

School drop off today- with new shoes from Honey. We'll see how long he keeps them on. Drop off was better today- but not great. And again- I'm not only talking about how much he cries (I expected that). I'm talking about how receptive, engaging and helpful the teachers are...oy vey.

Hope

Bennett and I had a good talk with Davis' teacher, Kathryn, Friday...so without belaboring it, I left feeling more hopeful. Tomorrow is a new day, and a new week, and as I rocked Davis tonight, I prayed that God would give Davis a calm heart and help him relax and see how fun his school can be. Nikki is picking him up tomorrow so he can leave early and I know he will be so thrilled to see her. Speaking of, Nikki and Tony came over tonight to hang out, and we had such a good time. They brought me pickles and ice cream- so that was fun! :)

This weekend was a great one, in general. Friday we had Courtney and B over for dinner and I made Chicken Tikka Masala, an indian dish, and it was actually great. I was so thrilled. I cooked the entree, the sides (squash), paired the wines, and planned dessert (vanilla yogurt and berries). I don't ever really do that- so it was nice that with all the effort- it was a big hit. REALLY spicy, but worth doing again and tweaking a bit. Bennett even loved it and he thinks he hates indian food. Not bad.

Saturday was fun too- we met the Ryans and the Hamblens at The Flying Saucer to enjoy a brew and let the boys play on the splash pad. Too bad the splash pad was broken. The dads played with the boys (Porter, Davis and Sawyer) outside on the patio instead. Davis busted his little chin on the concrete. Poor guy. He is looking rough this week. Bruises and scratches on his legs from God-only-knows what, a busted chin and a little cut on his foot. :( At least he is having fun getting all these scrapes.

He is obsessed with both running and hiding these days. It's hysterical to watch how patient he can be while waiting for one of us to walk by, before he pops out. And he is so thrilled while he is hauling bootie the other direction. It's pretty hysterical, and I get it, it looks pretty fun, but I also realize it's not going to work if we're ever in a place packed with people. He needs to know when to stop.

Reminds me of the time I hid from my grandmother in the middle of a clothes rack when I was little and nearly gave her a heart attack. I can now appreciate how she felt. Sorry nanny!

Saturday we went to sleep early- pretty much any night I can be in bed by 10, I am. This morning we went to church, heard a great sermon about how much bigger Future Regret is than Present Fear...and how not to let present fear drive future regret and despair. He challenged the congregation to to do two things- which the Bennetts are certainly going to do. 1) Pretend you die next Saturday, and write your obituary. And then 2) Pretend you die at 90, and write your obituary. Figure out the difference and make some decisions. Big, huh? Yes. So church was good and Davis was happy in sunday school.

This afternoon we ran some errands, did a little browsing at Play It Again Sports, which means we also have to stop into Toys R Us. When you see his excited little face, you just can't say no...and he can spot that sign a mile away.

A few other things worth noting:
1) Davis can now say "vacuum" instead of "doom-a" (kind of breaks my heart)
2) He's picked up so many other words and sayings, I don't even know where to begin. He loves to say "yeah" now to things...which is pretty cute.
3) He does the funniest little face when he is "smelling" something. He snuffs up his nose and blows out instead of really breathing in. It's adorable.
4) And of course I can't think of any more right now, so that will have to do. I'll post some cute pictures I took this weekend, tomorrow.

Oh, also, last thing...having a girl is starting to set in, which is so fun. We picked out a few little outfits this weekend...oh my gosh, we're in so much trouble. I found about 15 things at Nordstrom that she MUST have. Bennett picked one dress for now and I can't wait to get it in the mail. Tea collection and Mini Boden, oh my! This is going to be so fun.

Sugar and Spice

And everything nice. That's what little girls are made of!
Yay for a healthy baby girl.

Also- I just want to note how awesome my friends and family are. I came back from my appointment to find two things on my desk and one in my inbox. 1) A tangelo 2) a cute little sign telling me congrats on the news and 3) an adorable little idea board email for baby girl linens! The tangelo is from my boss because I shared mine with her yesterday and it was seriously the best tasting fruit I've had in years? Craving? Maybe, but she agreed. The little sign is from my co-worker, Elizabeth and the note is from Nikki and Honey.

I am thankful.
Let the shopping/planning begin!

Feeling sad

I don't think there is any other way to sum it up. Davis has been up on and off pretty much all night. I could hear him sobbing in his bed at midnight and it just makes me have a heavy heart. Makes me wonder if I am doing the right thing for him. And/but then I try to remember that I expected this and its totally normal. It will pass. Right?

And I try to remember real problems are like not being able to sleep because you don't know where your baby's next meal is coming from, or something. Not whether or not he will be happy tmw morning. But beyond being healthy, wondering if your child is happy feels pretty colossal.

So he can't sleep and neither can I. My heart is heavy but I am trying trying trying to keep perspective.

Pink or Blue for Baby #2

Tomorrow is another big day for the Bennetts! We go to the doctor midday to find out whether Davis is going to have a little brother or sister, and I can't wait to find out. My boss keeps giving me a hard time about it, challenging me to do something different...but I am doing something different, I'm having a second baby. I've certainly never done that before. :) In the meantime, I'll be finding out if it's a boy or girl because I love looking forward to things and imagining and planning.
Details tomorrow...